sad life.

hai. i'm so truly disappointed with you.
despite whatever you can say me, selfish, taking you for granted, telling ppl how pissed you are, my sadness for you as a friend is so much more than the angriness..
i cried talking to lishi on phone.
cos i dont expect a friend scolding bullshit and caps all her msges..
you said that you waited for our sms for 3hours, similarly, i've waited for your sms for 3 hours the previous day..
and although i've not much to say while msging, i just want to chat with you..
and you still kept saying i took you for granted..
during all those days when i'm sad, did you even console me..
you knew, i told you, but you didn't do anything like just some simple things like sending me a msg..
being fair, we shall do it in school, but not confirm cos we havent even settle the time..
and you said it'll be more fair doing in orchard..
i dont know what you're thinking, but doin in orchard is definitely not fair, just like as vivo you said the other day..
and when i wanna reply that it isn't your fault or anybody's fault..
you caps your msg and said dont ever say is your fault, cos we've discuss but never tell you..
but we didnt even confirm, and was just asking if your want to change the location..
mayb there's some miscommunication with lishi too, cos we just merely discuss a little only but not every detail..
and if is me, i'll wait for your to settle everything and tell me.. it's not like last min anyway..
i've apologise and want the matter to rest and you said a sorry wont be enough..
even lishi had also said sorry.
and i dont know why you want to make it such a big matter or big fuss.
mayb i'm easy to bully or play with or mayb lishi, but that doesnt mean we dont have feelings..
i'm so tired about the whole thing, when you always grudge about the past..
and to bring up something, me and lishi found out we are so left out from you guys, our class..
don't know when and how it started, but it's now like this..
very sad. but i dont know what to do now..